camera shake!

Update: I am now working for netbooster asia as an art director. Job's okay not as fun as grupo sorbetero but i can manage. Just kinda sucks that the creative team is composed of me and my boss. Oh well a job is a job. Hopefully things look up this year.

Today i say goodbye to the car. My brother's gonna sell it an i'm gonna be carless for god knows how long. Good think i don't really need the car on weekdays since i usually commute to work anyway. Hopefully it gets replaced soon and i'll be mobile once again.

That's all for now.

I'm hungry.

I'm just gonna write this down so that i can look back at it a year from now and see how well i did. So last year was a hellish year and i'm not happy about how certain things turned out. Anyway.. water under the bridge. It's a new year and there are a lot of things so look forward to. This year started out great with my stint at grupo sorbetero. I think it's my last week this week and i really learned a lot from it plus the people there are really fun to work with. I also have a few ventures with my friends planned for this year. I know that if we all work hard and believe that we'll succeed we will be able to make a difference in the fields we have chosen to get into. Anyway that's all for now.

Ok.

so the year's about to end. It's very cold. Nothing better than someone to be with to beat the cold. Too bad i no longer have that. This year started out really great then it turns into shit right before it ends. Fuck 2008. I fucking hate christmas

It's quite addicting actually. Takes a lot of time and ram to process though. I wanna get out of manila and take pics now. Damn.

Anyway here are some samples...



Panorama from my condo's fire escape



Cafe by the ruins in baguio




Malcolm's place in dela costa


I'll be posting more of these as soon as im able too.

Yey

How i wish i had some kodak tmax400 or ilford hp5 and a small rangefinder. Oh well lightroom does the trick. I miss shooting on film. Maybe someday I'll actually have the motivation to do so. Anyway... Macau was pretty boring for me. I dindn't get to go around much plus there's nothing much to do anyway. Here are some photos i took while going around.



A bus



"Look at sky"



2 girls



shopping...



bored girl



taxi (taxi drivers here are not assholes like in the philippines)



old guy and his cardboard box table



a statue

Steady as usual. It was not that cold though. I brought studio lights all the way to tagaytay so we could take band photos for halik ni gringo but due to lazyness we were able to do just one layout. Maite also got her almost hour-long photoshoot. I brought rica along too. I think she enjoyed even though she doesn't know my friends that well yet.

Anyway here are some pics of the photoshoot haha

Maite on bass haha




Halik ni Gringo

May 22, 2008. So far so good. I surely am not the greatest speaker in the whole world but i do get the message through somehow. Its only a matter of time 'till things fall into place. I still have a lot of questions but i trust those things will be answered in time. What's important is that its working out. I look forward to more nights like this. Yey :)

The past few weeks have been great. Some things are starting to fall into place. At least one part of me is really really happy right now. I just wish everything else would some how follow suite. I love the feeling of something new. Its very refreshing and inspiring at the same time (no, i will not write a song now coz im pretty sure the lyrics will suck haha). So there. Let's drink to good times and speed racer!

I am really bad at speaking but fortunately i was able to get the point across so yehey! At least one part of my life is looking up. now for the rest

I hate it when all these responsibilities are put on your shoulder especially if they aren't even yours to begin with. I find myself more and more detached from my life here at home. I really feel that i no longer have a family i can actually count on. Mom's really out of it. Dad's an asshole. My brothers don't live here anymore. I'd love to move out but then again who's gonna stay with mom? Oh well. I was just thinking about how much i want to get into a relationship again but then again i have a fucking bulkload of issues that i have to deal with first. Why me!? I just want a normal life but no... I get a really fucked up reality as a reward. Oh well, maybe a really big bus will hit me as i cross the street and save me from all this.

Okay, so i'm in baguio right now and it's so effin boring. I'm here to shoot the flower festival but it's so boring right now. nothing to do. thank god for smart's internet service via cellphone. Its just not the same when you're not with your friends. oh well. at least its very cold. haha. kelangan nalang ng kayakap HAHAHAHAHA

The Bottom Line

Focus your energies on an issue that is developing in a non-romantic relationship.
In Detail

A challenge will handed down to you today -- perhaps in the form of a dare or a contest. It's hard for you to pass up the opportunity to show other people how hard you rock, but you might want to abstain from the action. There are developing issues in one of your non-romantic relationships, and you need to focus your energies on them before you can go off and play. Show people that you know how to put things into the proper perspective. Priorities matter.


HAHAHAHHAHA NOW THIS IS FUNNY!!! it's quite true and its a bit creepy.

But seriously, I have trust issues. If you cross the line its close to impossible to get back on my good side.

Like what sam said, when you're friend gets fucked you really get affected but in this case i got caught in the crossfire. It just pisses me off when you consider someone a friend then you get ditched out of nowhere. What kind of sick, idiotic mind does that anyway? This really doesn't help my trust issues. Since 2002 things like this keep happening. You give people your trust but in the end they do things that make a murderer seem like a nice guy. Fuck this.

I feel used. the used. what the hell? What's fucking wrong? hahaha ewan.

Here we go again. Insomnia and bad sleeping habits. It's either my body clock's really screwed or I'm thinking too much again. I hate it. Anyway, a lot of weird shit has been going on. Let's just see how things go.

Since the year started, a lot of weird shit has been happening. Oh well. Lets just see where this ends. Anyway. I tried drawing something this afternoon. I haven't used a pencil to draw for almost 6 months now.

Pencil on paper (no reference) then took a picture of it (since i dont have a scanner) then stroked and colored using illustrator. maybe i should design clothes nalang. nyahaha

Wow, finally the year ends. Many many things have happened this year. I can still remember how this year started. As of today i have officially been single for exactly a year. It doesn't really bother me anymore, not like say 7-8 months ago. Last year was a really trying year for me. So many things got really complicated. There's the breakup thingy, all the dramarama in the group, problems with the band, my mom having 2 heart attacks in the span of 4 months and her triple heart bypass, having to deal with loneliness issues, and all sorts of shit. All that crap doesn't mean that i had an entirely crappy year though. This year i've met a lot of new people, some of which have really made a difference in my life... maybe... I was able to HK with my good friends and watch the cure live, gone on spontaneous road trips at 3am, got back to freelance photography, renewed old friendships, gained a very nice older sister and lastly I came to realize that my life is more colorful because of all the bonds i share with a lot of different people. Last year was really a blast.

This year is gonna be different. Really different. I'm not the person who welcomes change with open arms. I really wish things won't change much this year. I like my life as it is. Anyway, It's been a long night and i am sleepy. Happy New Year everybody :)

you get something new like a new phone you seem compelled to sms people or call them? I got a new lens and that compelled me to take some photos. Its a Canon 50mm compact macro. That means i can take close up pictures of objects now. yehey. Now all i need is a 70-200mm lens and my lens line up is complete. after that a new cam would be nice. hay.



Anyway, Its almost christmas and I haven't gotten gifts for anyone yet for the main reason that i'm not good at getting gifs for people. Hmm. Maybe ill come up with something by tonight. Lapit na pasko yahoo. haha

Wow,this year passed by so quickly. We're now on the last few weeks of christmas and a lot of things have changed although there are certain things that haven't and probably won't.

Oh, it's sexy party this saturday! yehey!

Where's that push when you need it. Seriously though, its kinda hard to sustain certain things when you ain't got the drive.